The Last Day
Jan. 16th, 2004 06:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
purpletigron When I went downstairs, SK had failed to make it all the way to the litter tray for only the third time in this illness, and was uncomfortable and dirty on the warm patch. Once cleaned, SK seemed to enjoy the raw liver and fresh water, and should be more comfortable now.
I decided several weeks ago that when SK could no longer get to the litter tray, it would be time, and the look in those kitty eyes seems to agree with me. So G and I will be holding SK's paw this morning when the vet adminsters the lethal injection, and then we will bring SK home to be buried under the rowan tree.
Yes, I'm weeping as I type.
I decided several weeks ago that when SK could no longer get to the litter tray, it would be time, and the look in those kitty eyes seems to agree with me. So G and I will be holding SK's paw this morning when the vet adminsters the lethal injection, and then we will bring SK home to be buried under the rowan tree.
Yes, I'm weeping as I type.
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Date: 2004-01-15 10:26 pm (UTC)Hugs!
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Date: 2004-01-15 10:29 pm (UTC)I've been through an agonising mental process, but for the first time yesterday - thanks in significant part to your support, and that of my other friends - knew that the time was very near, and that I am strong enough to do what needs to be done. I am going to see if I can hold SK's paw during the injection - I think it is the right thing to do, too, but it will be difficult!
[Oh, damn, nearly dripped on G's laptop again]
Hugs all round, including your little fuzzies!!!
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Date: 2004-01-15 11:35 pm (UTC)You've been a good parent to SK, and deserve lots of hugs your way, too.
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Date: 2004-01-16 11:07 am (UTC)Thank you. Hugs very much appreciated.
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Date: 2004-01-16 02:42 am (UTC)I know that's cold comfort now, though. Cry as much as you feel like. Take as much time as you can just to do things that make you feel good. And always, always remember the good times. *hugs*
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Date: 2004-01-16 03:45 am (UTC)I've gotten a lot of strength by knowing I was going through this as you were. Hope at least some of that was mutual. *hugs*
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Date: 2004-01-16 11:09 am (UTC)It has indeed been very helpful to be sharing my pain - I've been embarassed about writing so much about it, begging for support, but needing to all the same. Hugs, hugs, hugs!
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Date: 2004-01-15 10:44 pm (UTC)Many hugs.
pjt
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Date: 2004-01-15 10:54 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-15 11:38 pm (UTC)You're doing the right thing, but that doesn't make it any easier.
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Date: 2004-01-16 11:10 am (UTC)"The pain that you feel, you only can heal by living..."
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Date: 2004-01-15 11:55 pm (UTC)Hugs and much sympathy.
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Date: 2004-01-16 11:11 am (UTC)I do have some feeling of relief, however, from the dreadful burden of responsibility, the forboding, and the slow decline of my beloved fuzzy...
hugs!
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Date: 2004-01-16 12:12 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 11:13 am (UTC)Hugs!
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Date: 2004-01-16 03:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 11:18 am (UTC)(Seems I am right to be child-free...)
Thank you.
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Date: 2004-01-17 06:24 am (UTC)You have my sympathies in your grieving.
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Date: 2004-01-16 03:44 am (UTC)Another of my friends is going through the same thing with one of her dogs ... the vetinary hospital said Sandy had between two weeks and two months left to live (a cancer in a gland plus a "mass" of some sort in the heart) and that was over two weeks ago.
They are spending as much time together as possible in the time that is left and Sandy is being taken for car rides (which she loves!) as much as possible ... but she is getting less and less mobile and has lost a lot of her appetite ... and the difficult thing to know is when to hold on and when to let go ... it seems to me you've doing precisely the right thing at the right time (and still I have tears in my eyes typing this) and that SK will be much happier chasing the butterflies in kitty-heaven than she would if you stretched her existence out here on earth.
And it's always good to be able to say "goodbye" while there's an ear to hear it.
::hugs::
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Date: 2004-01-16 11:25 am (UTC)It is so awful to have this power of death over animals... and to see them slowly slipping away with disease :-(
Hugs all round!
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Date: 2004-01-16 04:16 am (UTC)-J
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Date: 2004-01-16 11:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 11:46 am (UTC)I think the whole "rethinking your steps" thing is something that you do even when you're not directly responsible for that big decision, and it's so much worse when you are. But you can "if only" yourself into a frenzy, and I hope that it helps stave that off to hear people telling you that this was a good decision.
-J
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Date: 2004-01-16 01:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 06:05 am (UTC)You're doing the right thing, and it's not easy.
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Date: 2004-01-16 11:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 06:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 11:40 am (UTC)Hugs!
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Date: 2004-01-16 06:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 01:37 pm (UTC)Perfectly expressed.
Hugs!
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Date: 2004-01-16 06:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 11:41 am (UTC)I hear that Remmie is doing better, which gives me more hope that you have many happy years together ahead...
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Date: 2004-01-16 08:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-16 11:42 am (UTC)Hugs!
love & hugs
Date: 2004-01-16 09:11 am (UTC)Blessings, Dayle
Re: love & hugs
Date: 2004-01-16 11:43 am (UTC)Some day soon, G and I will be able to properly appreciate the happy memories, when the painful ones are less raw.
Hugs!
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Date: 2004-01-16 01:08 pm (UTC)Also--though I really hope this will be completely irrelevant--if you should happen to encounter some insensitive bastard during your grieving process who is less than sympathetic because, after all, it was "only a pet?" Please recognize them for the insensitive bastard that they are and don't take it to heart. Most people experience exactly the same emotional response to the loss of a beloved pet as they would to that of a close family member, and whatever anyone may say, you are entitled to your grief.
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Date: 2004-01-16 01:39 pm (UTC)But thank you for expressing so clearly why this is actually not my problem...
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Date: 2004-01-16 02:33 pm (UTC)Be good to yourself, k?
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Date: 2004-01-16 10:00 pm (UTC)